The most frustrating thing for me, I think, is being misunderstood
and not the annoying teenage "nobody understands me" type of frustration, but the genuine annoyence when somebody doesn't even try to see from your point of view.
For me, this happens a lot with dating
Everytime I explain to a person my dating views I have to brace myself for the retaliation.
I have chosen not to date for very specific reasons.
One, I don't what to date anybody I'm not going to marry (forgive the melodrama), and since I am no where near the age of marrying I have a while to worry about it
Two, I am saving myself for whoever I marry. And I'm not just talking sex. I'm talking emotions, feelings, other physical stuff (i.e. holding hands, ect). I want to be able to give my husband all of me, and if I've already fallen in love with somebody else or have had strong feelings for somebody else, then there will always be a part of me I'm holding back.
Three, I don't see dating as practicing ( I actually think that's a bit rediculous), I think you can tell what you like and don't like in the opposite sex from being friends with somebody. Dating is just an excuse to get physical.
Four, I trust God. I have had a lot of people ask me how I would know if what I was feeling was real if I'd never been serious with anyone else. The answer is simple, I trust God. Jeremiah 29: 11. If I put my faith in Him, He will bless my marriage and lead me down the right path. And it's more than marriage. I trust God in life. With college. With my family. With Altaer. It's so hard to explain to somebody who doesn't know Jesus why I do abnormal things and trust that everything will turn out okay in the end.
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I suppose that when I tell a person all of this they might automatically think that I'm condeming their love life, and so they might get defensive, but I'm not. Everyody is different, God doesn't make cookie-cutter creations. And He has different plans for everybody, this is just the way I feel God has called me to follow Him, and so I'll honor Him with my love life. It's going to be worth it one day. Hebrews 10:23 I hold onto that Hope because God is faithful.
Now, that leads into more questions
Can a male and a female be close friends without letting emotions get in the way?
My heart inside of me wants to say yes, but I suppose it'd be awfully tricky.
I'll have to get back to that later when I have a little bit more knowledge.
**So today at lunch a friend and I were talking about college, a particular college that I'd like to go to and I feel called to go to, and she was saying all of this bad stuff about how that college was terrible to go to if I wanted to get into medical school. I was a bit frustrated with her because I felt like she was putting so much stock into what other people did and said in stead of putting her stock in God's faithfulness. God is bigger than any medical school and any college, He can do the impossible, and if I don't get into medical school, then God is obviously trying to tell me to do something else in life.
I love my friend, but she's very much a Martha and I'm very much a Mary. And sometimes she yells at me for not helping out and sitting and listening in stead. I wish she would allow more peace in her life. I mean for goodness sake we are free aren't we? Why can't we live like it? Sometimes we still live like we're in chains...but we're not! the grave is empty!
and now I've turned preacher
awesome
maybe I won't go to medical school
and I'll preach on the streets of Atlanta in stead
Well...God's will :)
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