Secret Santa

So we've been doing secret Santas this past week (like we do every year)

and I am having so much fun!
I think that I'm the sneakiest secret Santa ever. Nobody can figure out who Caroline has (because I have Caroline) and nobody can figure out who Nichole has. It's so much fun, and everybody is absolutely convinced that I have Kate. It's so great.

But even more than being sneaky it's been so much fun just to bless Caroline with stuff everyday. I wish that I could do it for everybody! Leave fun notes with cryptic messages on them, chocolate, a gift, something random (i.e. a tiara, an ornament, coloring book, etc), and a free hug coupon. It's just so neat. Tomorrow she's getting a crossword that has the message "Hola sabes quien soy? soy erincita!" and Hershey kisses and a coloring book with crayons and flowers.

And then it's also so much fun to know that something special is heading your way. Like today, I made a 56 on a calculus test and didn't do well on my Spanish speaking final but then I went into Language Arts and got an entire bag of 3 musketeer bars, an Enchanted coloring book with smelly crayons, and a pen that had bubbles in it that I can blow. My day was so good after that! It totally put me back in the right mood, and even though I know that Kristen has me, the mystery of it all is so much fun too!

That's pretty much what I've been thinking about today
Mystery.
Why people are drawn to it
and Why they feel the need to solve it
I mean I guess it's in our nature to want what we can't have and to know the secrets of the earth, I mean look at Adam and Eve, their original sin was having the desire to have the knowledge of good and evil because they thought they were missing out on something. They couldn't trust God that He knew what He was doing. I think that we're still the same. We always have to know everything because we like feeling included. I think that's why so many people fall into the temptation of gossiping. It's nice to know secrets and then flaunting to others that you know the secrets, you are included. But why do people feel the need to be included? Is it just a question of pride? a question of identity?
I used to pray a lot for God to give me understanding, for Him to give me knowledge. But I was asking for the wrong reasons. I wanted to be smart, I wanted to know all of God's secrets, all of His mysteries. I wanted to solve God. Not because I loved Him, but because I wanted to contain Him. I now realize that God only gives us understanding when it is necessary for us to live out His will. That's why He's sovereign and just. And He does that not so He can torture us but so He can protect us against our sin, like he tried to protect Adam and Eve.

Well those are my thoughts

Sleep time
woohoo Tomorrow is Friday!